Welcome! I'm so grateful you're interested in learning more about why I created Worthy Wands, how I turned my pain into power, and how I started a movement.
To begin a new story, you need to close an old book and start a new one. For me, this happened in 2017 when I was officially evicted from life as I knew it.
I want you to know something: we don’t get our so-called "identities" ripped away from us unless there’s a more authentic, more true identity we're meant to take hold of instead.
Why did I create these necklaces? These were necessary during a very dark time in my life when I needed an anchor, a truth north, and something to hang onto that no one could ever take away from me ever again. I needed a tool to reprogram my subconscious mind.
Behind every strong, independent woman lies a broken little girl who had to learn to get back up and push on like a warrior!
Content warning from this point on for those who are sensitive to difficult topics.
I was raped when I was 18. I was a virgin and was saving myself for someone "worthy." Before that day, I was alive, full of light and laughter. I was a social butterfly, open and floating through life.
But one rainy Halloween night, the lights went out. I was no longer "the angel,” the innocent, beautifully intact girl anymore. No matter how much I stared at those wings on the floor, they were broken and that little feathered crown was crooked and bent beyond repair.
I was a young woman attending university and living in a dorm away from home. What did I know? What would happen when my parents found out? What would that incident do to everyone I loved?
The shame kept me from healing from that experience. I was taught not to speak my truth because it would only hurt others. So, I stuffed it deep down inside and took on the label of damaged goods on a very subconscious level for the next 20 some years.
I took on the labels of unworthy, broken, and not enough. I decided I needed to be perfect going forward, and twisted myself into a pretzel for others so I wouldn’t disappoint because I felt so damaged inside.
No one could know my truth because maybe they wouldn't want me once they found out. Maybe they would see me as I saw myself.
I needed to be perfect and not rock any boats. I led with my masculinity, and in essence, conditioned the femininity right out of myself because it was much easier to DO than to BE. With this new “identity,” I stayed so far out of my worth, allowing bad behaviour in relationships to be excused and my needs to go unmet.
My low self worth and poor identity made it okay for me to ignore my intuition telling me, "hey, you know he's cheating on you right?" or "hey, you know those people aren't really your friends and they're just using you, you know that right?"
I made up stories to make it okay and ignored my inner cry for help.
This last eviction notice came in 2017 and all the titles that I loved so much were taken away from me; wife-to-be, mom, people pleaser, perfectionist, etc. I decided I needed to sit with my feelings, surrender to it, and marinate at rock bottom.
I needed to ask myself the hard questions and unbecome all the things that I had become that I thought would make me worthy of love. What did I love? Who was I? I spent all my life doing things for others and this made me happy, or did it?
Maybe you see yourself in my story?
Our Ego has only one job: to validate the narratives we tell it. This is why I've designed these necklaces as anchors with empowering words to help reprogram our subconscious minds.
If we believe the narrative that we're not enough, we will always be outside ourselves looking for more, and if we believe that we're not worthy, the universe delivers negativity, like Amazon Prime, to validate that narrative. Cancel that subscription ASAP!
My name, Amanda, means "worthy of love," but it wasn't until I was evicted from life at 44, in 2017, that I allowed myself to completely unbecome that old story and find a true one where I could be the leading lady in my own life. The one where I could become my own hero!
My eviction was brutal because I loved my identities. I loved taking care of other people because, I now realize as I look back, that it was how I deemed myself worthy of love. If I could fix people, if I could do things for others and if people needed me, then I would be worthy of love.
There are no prerequisites to our worth. I had to learn that lesson the hard way, and fast. And it hurt.
But here's what I know to be true: We’re ALL born worthy and enough. Loving is our default setting but somewhere along the way, we are conditioned out of our birthright and we start believing that someone or something outside of us could make us FEEL _____ .
I had to completely rewire my brain, change my life, and reprogram myself with words that felt good. I needed help and needed a daily reminder that I WAS WORTHY, that I was ENOUGH, that I was a WARRIOR, and that warriors can do hard things. If I lead with LOVE, I will always win. I mean, my name means “worthy of love” for god’s sake!
I dove deep into the world of Neuroscience, got certified in Neuro-Linguistic Programming, and started studying the subconscious mind with psychology. That became the game changer for me.
Understanding that we are not our thoughts, we are merely the thinker of our thoughts, is important. I started to see the light when I understood through Neuroscience that changing our brain patterning and programming was and IS possible!
I got to work and created these wearable, fashionable reminders that are backed by science and proven through epigenetics. Our cells are always listening so, why not feed it with empowering words vs the mean ones that live in our heads?
As creators, I believe we are always our own first client because we create what we wish existed. As the words laid across my chest, I not only had a reminder that I could see, but I also had something to touch and anchor its positivity in.
Eventually, those words seeped into my cells like lotion to dry skin and the game was changed for me.
Our brain learns by repetition and it’s how new neural pathways are created. These jewelry pieces are more than just cute accessories. Seeing these words and embodying them is how you rewire positivity into your brain. Neuroplasticity for the win!
Today, there are 4000+ necklaces in the world working their magic and changing lives, including my own. We also donate 10% of every sale to help stop the human sex trafficking of women and children.
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Sending you so much love,